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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

08.06.2025 04:18

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

And i lived it daily.

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

I was 9 years of age.

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She married twice! .

So whats the point in blame.

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

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He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

How can I move on from my ex?

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

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One cannot live in the past .

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

Was to survive, this bastard.

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I couldn’t, believe it.

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

But it wasn’t much.

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I was seconnd youngest,

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

Put me off passion for life!!

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A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

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And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

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We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

I waited trembling.

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

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Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

I don,t even have a pension.

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

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Why did i forgive my father ?

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

When she asked me how she looked .

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I did it because my mum asked me too!

We were not on the streets..

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

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And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

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She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

I had hoped to write a book about this .

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That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

I write beautiful poetry .

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

The only rule us 5 kids had .

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

He resisted the act ,that day.

But ive been too sick for many years..

I was scared of men, in general

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

She was in good health!

Im still living with it.

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

I was very sick at this time too.

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

She found it foreign!.

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

They are buried together, in the same grave..

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

We all went to grammer schools

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

(And it was in our own minds.)

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

He knew the spot.

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

I said to her

I could never make a relationship work though!

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

Who then, do I blame.?

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

I will be 64.

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

She wouldn,t have been !

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

On the 31st of Jan this month .

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

My mum and dad in the seventies!

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

My family never makes their pension either.

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

Where the ultimate outsiders.

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

She loved him until the end.

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

Im dying but, im not bitter.

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

I think the readers, may guess!

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

He was dying to do it , i knew.

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

This is how, and why children get BPD.

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

I have no regrets .

It was going to be , some day.

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

But, we were locked up after school.

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

Would this be the day?

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

All the time i was locked up.

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

And who doesn’t know suffering?

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

Especially a lifetime of it.

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

My life is so biszare .

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

So, i spoilt her more .

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

I never cut or harmed myself..

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

What did i know ?

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

Ive learnt so much.

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

As i do to all so called friends.?

Comes on , in middle age.

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

This is soul school!.

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

I know ,a lot about trauma.